03/11/26
04:40am

helloo,, it is just about time for me to get off my last day of work for the week. today the forecast calls for rain in the afternoon and storms in the evening, which is very exciting to me. i've been waiting for winter to back off a bit but even this period of warmer weather and thunderstorms will be short-lived. we are supposed to get another cold snap in about a week.. im over it lol x_x!

im also excited to be able to spend my entire day with my lover, his soft face, his gorgeous blue eyes, i miss his voice so much right now... but as soon as i get home i will be able to see him and my little baby cat, so i think i can wait a bit longer for such a gift. hopefully we will be able to spend the day soaking up nature and relaxing with eachother.
and tomorrow im going to see a friend for her birthday lunch and to go shopping. probably going to get some new pants, i haven't bought any in a while,, and i want some that actually fit me lol.
i hope this last hour or so is the fastest ive ever been through, heres to hoping.

listening to: billie was a vampire - selofan

02/25/26
10:37am

it is the end of february, three days remain. the chill in the air is making me nostalgic and full of anticipation for the rest of the year. the way it shocks my nervous system and blows right through my bones reminds me of when i felt like nothing more than a ghost. its been about four years since i moved out of my dads house to live "on my own". as on your own you can get in todays economy at 18 years old. which means with two other roommates, great and all but ive always just felt held down because of my situation. i live in my own apartment now with my boyfriend, it feels a lot better. going outside has become a new favorite hobby for me, even when the lack of sun in the winter wants to keep me pinned to my bed. my depression has been easier to manage and i can act upon my desires instead of feeling like theyre impossible. it feels like everything is possible now, from my own will to survive and the support from the people around me. even at the worst i am alive. so i will continue living, because a lot of beautiful and silly things happen all the time. i just need to jump on writing in here when they happen, because it seems unless i have the specific spark of creativity i cannot write anything to save my life.

im gunna finish up drawing and head home from the library. peace

02/18/26
08:04am

bwaa, hello everyone!!! welcome to the new blog layout, please excuse the fact that its a bit bare. i want to write in it more than i want to decorate it! i definitely got to try some new things this time around, lots more layering and textures. im open to any feedback you may have about it!

i really have been meaning to write in my blog, my old code was just one big long text file that was getting to be far too long. so that made it a bit difficult for me to update frequently enough. i also felt like any long writings i do would get buried in my many, many thoughts. now that ive been able to add a simple sidebar, it really opens things up. lets see whats in that sidebar...

our first category is "noteworthy". this is a pretty self explanatory one, anything i feel like should have its own spotlight page will be linked there and open in a new window. im working on a piece about my favorite mausoleum for that section, so stay tuned for that.
then there is "microlog", these are just specific subsections for things i talk about a lot, but don't need their own page or dedicated space on my site. they will open in this scrolling right side, just like the log you're reading now!

hopefully this change will bring me back to updating my site more often, social media really has me feeling off recently. besides tumblr im not active anywhere else, i dont like the rise of generative ai, i dont like short-form content, i dont like the heirarchy system that exists, i dont like where music has gone because of social media, everyone just wants a quick click, no soul, no heart, just likes. its the modern day that really makes me think about why i started this website in the first place. to be able to exist freely, dedicate my time into my passions more than just follow whatever is "trending", and not feel so forced to make things to please the algorithm!!! also remaking my blog has opened my eyes to where my site is also currently lacking, id really like to remake my art gallery soon, ive been kind of trying to keep the furry separate from my website ... but the time has come for these two worlds to come together. my art has been my life for a long time, and id like to be able to give it the proper spotlight, finally.

this post is a bit long for what i'd usually post in a microlog, but i hope this helps explain where i want to go with things. i hope you will come back to see it soon!