urghhhghgnh oh m god im about to pass out i swear to god. im sotired i can feel my brain dying inside my head, rotting and decaying and melting away..... i can't stand being awake!!!!! sleep is so nice..... i get to lay down in my blanket with my pillows and theres nobody to bother me and i can just relax and its quiet and im not sitting in a cold room with dirty linoleum tiles and bright flourescent lights that hurt my mind. i cant think in here, not just because im tired, because this isn't the right place for me. i hate this fucking school dude!!!! everyone gets on my nerves and i dont know if its just social awkwardness or everyone here just sucks....... i cana=0gadbfhgnsdfja gnsd;fjkgiojadklfgh RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrGOD ok anyways back on the topic of sleep i wish i could go home and take a nap but i haven't been napping lately, living with my dad has become a bit of a positive change bceause i actually act like a usual human being instead of staying in my room all day and not talking to anyone. and sure it's a bit irritating when my brother comes running in my room to bug me or when my dad just stands in my doorway, but i actually feel important and included lol.
writing this kind of helped wake me up but not really. i can tell im going to be fighitng off sleep for the rest of the day. i really just want to go home, even if i have to do school at home i'd rather be there tha nhere, it gives me a headache just sitting in this fuckign room. !!!!!!!!!!!!!! ....to make things even more tiring my friend just sent me like 20 videos on snapchat and i really dont want to watch them , not bceause i dont like the person that sent them to me but i really dont have the mental capacity to deal with whatever is gonig on lol///////////// and i didnt do my math homework ... its due today but i realyl dont care ......... its only worth 20 points, i have a 94%, he'll get it tomorrow.... i dont have time for this today......
point is, im tired, i dont think i've had a coherent thought in months, and even talking to people is becoming too much of a strain on my mental well-being, i have that one car seat headrest song stuck in my head, now im gonna take a nap or somethign. godobye